If you're not sure if
you want to buy oranges
you might not buy one
and even if you buy one
you may never know for sure.

I'm telling my thoughts
that they need to quiet down
but it's not working
Maybe my quieting down
will help calm my thoughts down too

It's not just foxholes,
as I've never been in one;
it's places of fear,
like the one I'm in right now.
There are no atheists here.

Have to/don't have to,
how I feel about writing,
as the clock runs down.

And maybe it's obvious 

that my writing means living

100

So much is inside,
like I'm inside my home now,
my thoughts inside me.
But it can be dark inside,
while the light awaits, outside.

If you don't get that 
you don't get it then I can't
get you to get it
I just wish that you would stop
telling me I don't get it

Sitting, post minyan
Processing past Yom Tov days
And looking ahead.
Family and friends in mind
And responsibility.